~when i'm dealing with human i learn empathy, happiness and joy. when i'm dealing with animal i learn compassion, tolerance and forgiveness which is for me humanity. -farhanah noah

Sunday, 18 April 2010

~ShOpPiNg mALL mArAThOn.......



okay... i went to sopping mall marathon last saturday... what the heck is shopping mall marathon???? hahha..

owh teramat la bosan... so saya ajak anis ngn bf nye berpeleseran kt area kl.... nice... saya suka.... hm... 

since mereka jnji nk fetch saya kt shah alam so saya rileks je la kt apartment pg2 tuh... saya ckp ambk around 10 am tp biase la janji melayu.... 1130 bru sampai... perut dh lapar gle dh... cam haram btol... ckp la awal2 nk dtg lmbt... bencisss....

ok... saya prepare breakfast... incase kelaparan.... yes memang betol... adalah lapar... grrrr..... so we had breakfast in the car.... sbb lapar sgt dh... nsib la prepare breakfast... kalo x memang menggigil kelaparan la.... the driver gedik... saya suru stop mane2 mkn tp die xnk... so ko kelaparan la ye.....

1st destination is @curve... hm... x best... maybe agak awal... around 1230 kami sampai......plus kt cni xde ape... nk tgk movie masing2 mcm beku... lemau... lambat.... blur... so perjalanan diteruskan keluar dr @ curve tu... camwhore kt lobby sikit sebelum dihalau makcik guard sbb cross line larangan masuk... mcm haram..


 

jake sully...

xde yg best kt sini... move on la.... owh ada street mart kt luar... nice... cantik view nye..... i likeee itttt....



kaum batak dan haiwan peliharaan mereka....


 konon naik tangga la kn.... sila abaikan objek hitam dibelakang saya...

sila jgn persoalkan gambar ini...

oleh krn boring so kami masuk ke d curve plak... mane tau ade sale.... hahah... xde sale pon... hampeh...


fokus.. fokus


oleh krn tiada hala tuju disini... maka kami pun ke destinasi seterusnye... one utama plak... ok... kt cni bez sbb ader sale.... x la shopping sakan... at least xnk balik ngn tgn kosong... owh gembira dapat mmembeli sehelai tshirt dan sehelai cardigan panjang.... gembira.....

abaikan lembaga hitam dibelakang saya itu.... dia hanyalah tukang pandu kereta... dia tidak penting....

oleh krn dh bez n exited tgk barang sana sini... kaki pn adalah sudah penat.... maka sesi meng cam whore adalah slow... x byk pict diambil kt cni.... dan... perut sudah lapar sgt.... so kami pun cari tempat lunch plak...  ye lunch... around 4pm....




 saya x sure sgt la kt mane restoran ni... tp adalah best... from western to eastern die pnye menu.... harga pn afordable... sedap pn sedap gak... list menu dia mcm list match game bolasepak dow.. slalunye kt tepi menu tu dorg sediakan gmbar contoh tp  dorg letak gmbr team2 bolasepak plak... aishhhh.... so x dpt imagine la mcm mane rupa paras makanan tu kn... ape la.... 





ade tgn keji mengganggu.....



gmbr ni buruk gle... saya pn x sure knp mamat ni sanggup buat muke mcmtu... hahahah... lawak gile....






ok... yg kt sebelah kiri tuh bukan beer.... itu adalah fresh honey dew.... betol...


padahal die byk mkn td... tp msh lahap... keliwon???? btw mee tomyam ye uols...

grilled chicken... saya minta coleslaw diganti ngn mash potato.... bru bes... heheh....

ok... then adalah lost coz x tau nk kemana lg... jd suara sumbang makhluk hitam sajes ke sunway pyramid... yeahooo..... xnk balik... xnk balik.....

actually saya adalah seorang yg malas nk keluar rumah.. kebanyakan mase adalah duduk di dalam rumah... tp nnt ble saya dh keluar saya malas pulak nk balik rumah.....

ok parking kereta kt parking lot kt luar sunway hotel....



teringat zaman dulu-dulu..

heh... uols perasan x objek hitam tu memang suke enterframe time saya nk camwhore kn? cube review balik pict2 td... musti die ader kt belakang saya....

ok saya paham... fine... aku letak la gmbr ko kt blog aku ni ha... ehh tidak.. tidak... dia bukan makhluk belaan saya.. syirik....

pompuan ni memang lorat... dh la die yg beria nk mkn... then sampai2 sunway je nk minum plak.... so g la booth jus... lupa ape namenye... tp hrga die adla dalam rm8++ n siap ader promotion untuk student... si pelahap ni pn trus jadik member... tuh membercard nye.. pasni kaye la kdai jus tuh... pelanggan tetap die ni akan datang menyerang bile2 mase....

jalan2 cuci2 mata sampai mlm kt dalam tu... interesting coz ader sale juga.... saya pun x paham la... knp dorg wat sale?? or maybe harga time x sale pun same je... cume saje letak sign sale sale tuh?? or dh mark up dlu bru bg discount la konon.... cmtuh eh???
around 9 blah... cri tempat lepak... kaki dh gigil2.... lepak kt asia cafe... ok la tempat org tgk bola.... die mcm fudcourt la... ader hidang beer n etc... tmpt nye open air.... x kisah la... nice cozz ramai org x kira bangsa... but dorg serve pork... ok... saya x kisah sgt beer and alcohol... tp saya x leh go kalo ader serve pork la..... so... kami pn blah..... jem x hengat area subang tuh... around 10 lebih tuh lepak kt 1 restoran ni.... skali tgk mamak plak la..... fyi saya x berapa lyn mamak... demand kn?.. tp mengenangkan agak lapar... n nak mengalas perut sebelum balik maka saya pun order la nan cheese n mee goreng...




ok... canai kafe namenye... kt area subang... xtau la nk ckp sedap ke x coz saya sgt jarang nk mkn kt mamak... hehe...

mcm restoran mamak biase... agaknye la....
k xtau nk tulis ape lg dh.... saya ambil mase 2 hari nk upload pict kt post ni... ntah la knp line x bagus... fuck btl...

k... later..

Wednesday, 14 April 2010

~cOnFesSsiOn...............

E....

just say those words....

and i would say "yes"......

the pain is unbearable....

i can't be apart from you anymore...

~LoVe LeTtER................


dear hubby.....


i miss your charming face. everything i do it's remind me of you. even when i speak. every words remind me of you. i can't stop from thinking of you. i pray everyday that God will bless you... or you can have mine. forgetting you is the only thing i would never do.. a smile from you means summer for me. you mean the world to me..

from the day i met you i know you are perfect for me. i can't live without you plus i don't want to live without you. it hurt so bad to be apart from you. i miss your smile, your warm hand and your gentle touch. i wish it will last forever. i love the way you look at me. my love for you will never fade away. there will always be a place for you in my heart, my mind and my life.

you are everything to me. i mean everything... my dreams... my breath and everything. it just i don't know how to tell you how i am greatful to have you in my life... the only thing i could give you is my heart and my life.... i don't want to argue... i never meant to start a fight. i just want your attention... it's really kills me to be in this  situation. i just hope everything will get better soon.... i do miss your voice.... the voice that give me strength at all time........ i really hope you will get better....

i am so sorry....... so very sorry..............



i love you.....

now and forever...........

Tuesday, 13 April 2010

heart..

Firstly I begin by saying that I love you so so much; and that my heart alone beats to every single breath of yours. I will always love you I can’t change that; you will always be on my thoughts I can’t help that but you love someone else I can’t bear that. My love for you is undying when you told me your heart was with NN still; I literally died in that moment, my happiness was crushed, my world was broken and my heart was torn on top of that it was all through a message but destiny has always had its peculiar necessities.


In that moment my only thought was emptiness, the most valuable thing in my life something which to me was priceless was gone. My next thought of course was to reply but what could I say what could I do, we were talking about the heart here, the heart’s a force people cannot change nor can we question it all we can do is simply listen very closely to it and follow it. So what happened next I went against every string of hair, every muscle, every drop of blood in my body to type that message saying follow your heart MY, you don’t understand just how unbearable it was for me to write that message believe me you don’t understand; as I finished typing every word it was like being stabbed in the heart over and over again.

Why could I not stop you? Well because you mean too much to me to have you away from your love, your honesty it was gracious and I will love you more for that but it was in the end to late. My eyes could only see your face with a smile on it and I realised that it could never happen with me. I know it was extremely hard for you to tell it to me but in no way do you have to be sorry, you only told me what was in your heart no one can blame anyone for that. But of course i can never be the same person as I was before that’s because a part of me died and it was the only part that kept me going for this year with all the drama at home then our drama do you want to know which part it was, it was MY HOPE. The hope of being with you together, the hope of moving forward becoming successful becoming responsible, the hope to have a happy life but most of all my hope for you to love me back for the rest of my life.

In the end you should be aware that I’m sorry for everything that happened between us, well at least just the bad ones. Finally now you shouldn’t be confused with your heart and where it belongs believe me; if you still tell me otherwise you will hurt me much more than what I am already. At the end of the day it was your choice you made it, you expressed it and you will live with it whether it is good or bad. Bad luck for me because I want to stop loving you but I can’t, I just can’t no matter how hard I try. I love you that much that I will love you forever and nothing can or will change that NOTHING at all. Every day I sit down and think why i still love you, why I’m still crazy about you, why my thoughts begin with you and end with you, why that it is only you I see in my dreams, why when I see other girls your face just appears to me and if you must know I have felt like this not just from recently but from every day since your birthday party at your house and never since then has the way I felt ever changed not even for a split second. Why why why.

So why do I love you so much, I tried and tried to think why but I still didn’t know then finally instead of thinking I decided to feel, feel what’s in my body, feel what’s in my heart and feel what’s in my soul. I love you because you are beautiful both on your outside and inside and I still remember every time I would see you I couldn’t stop staring it’s like you were a magnet and my eyes were just stuck on you, your caring person even when you become angry you still cared and you gave off this warmth that still keeps me warm, you are the best listener you would sit there and listen to me go on and on and on and not say a single word but just a little squeeze of my hand and I knew in that moment nothing was more important to you than the words that were coming out of my mouth. Your humour, you would always see the lighter side of things and your laugh; it keeps echoing in my head to this day and continues to make me smile. Your kindness, always trying to help others you always were never selfish and would always think of others before yourself. Your ability to drink a lot, you machine you could keep up with me a lot longer than others that’s why those memories of us at the bar are burned right into me lol. Your Look, when I would be angry at you, no matter what it was over you wouldn’t say anything but just give me that look which meant you were deeply and meaningfully sorry and after that words didn’t matter because I had already forgotten what I was angry about. You liked me a long time ago before most of my relationships but because of my stupidity and lateness not just in going places but my actual life, by the time I saw all this; your heart was already somewhere else. I remember all our memories, every single one of them even if I say I don’t remember, believe me I do I remember, I remember every little thing from when you were a little school girl staying out late to when you became an woman. I was always searching for someone to have and hold on to but mostly importantly, who cares for me and i care for them before that birthday, I always have loved you but not as strongly as after that night. Before it I wanted to be with you but was more concerned about what others would think. I still remember when we all used to work, Thursday together and every time you would always and I mean always force money on to me because you saw my fuel was always empty, you cared you actually cared about me. And your birthday night, and yes I know you were drunk but you grabbed on to me and wouldn’t let go in front your friends and family and also NN and your were exact words were “f@#k everyone else I just want SS to stay, SS your going to stay right?” my mouth dropped after all that time you still cared I became sober that night at that very second and by the time I got home my exact words sitting in front of my house that night and I will swear by it to the grave was “I had a chance with the best girl ever and I f@#ked it up” what I meant by that was I could have started a relationship with you years back but I didn’t and because of that I lost you .

There is one thing but that I love the most and I will always miss the most about you. When you used to grab my hands, it always used to go quiet at this point then you look me in the eyes and straight into my soul, finally you would smile and just say ‘SS’. Your smile MY that is what I fell in love with that is what I loved about you the day I first met you that is what brought me closer to you, only if your smile wasn’t so incredible I probably wouldn’t have paid any attention to you and everything we have been through probably would never have happened but the truth is that I would give up everything right now right here just to be able to see your smile every single day of my life, that’s the very thing that brought me to you that was our connection.

So now you should understand better why I am absolutely indefinitely yours for the rest of my life but the bitter part is that you aren’t mine. But remember I will always be happy for you as long as you are happy, and this is love we are talking about the most important thing in the world nothing can even come close comparing to it, I am happy that you both love each other, you both care for each other but you two should respect and cherish each other and understand what you have may not be what you want, but it is what you two NEED. Just remember it took a guy like me to come along for you to realise this. I want you to also remember the time we spent together and cherish that as well because don’t forget I was never just the other guy or rebound or cover-up or whatever you may call it. I will tell you what I was and also could have been because I am, I am what hahaha, I am the guy who will never stop loving you, I am the guy who saw no one else in front of you, I am the guy who would have died for you, I am the guy who was willing to fight the rest of the world for you, I am the guy who wanted nothing more than your happiness, I am the guy who would have bought you anything in this world you desired because you deserved it, I am the guy who would have sacrificed anything and everything for you, I am the guy who would always say sorry and make up after an argument even when it was your fault, I am the guy who would have never let a tear roll down your cheek and if it did would have stopped the world just to wipe it away, I am the guy who never even contemplated cheating on you, I am the guy who would never let anything or anyone stop us from being together even my family, I am the guy who only would have touched you to bring you closer, I am the guy whose lips your name is on every second, I am the guy whose heart is truly broken , I am the guy who wanted just to be in your arms I am the guy who maybae not now not at least for a little while , but eventually you will and I mean will regret leaving, and you will regret it every second of every hour of every day I promise you that. And lastly with my last line I write to you I ask you, yes you my love, my life, my obsession, my passion, my sanity, my insanity, my heartbeat, my breath, my soul, my eternity, my idol, my happiness, my sadness, my thought, my memory, my death, my everything I was I am and will always be the guy who loved you that much and I mean that much that I could not stop you from leaving me.



Love you ever and ever,

secret...

my darling.....

Pueden pasar tres mil años.



They can spend three thousand years.






Puedes besar otros labios,


You can kiss other lips,






Puedo morirme mañana.


I can die tomorrow.






Puede secarse mi alma,


One can dry my soul,






Pueden borrar mi memoria.


They can erase my memory.






Pueden robarme tu historia,


They can steal your history from me,






Puedes echarme de tu vida.


You can throw me of your life.






Puedes negar que me querias,


You can deny that you loved me,






pero nunca te olvidare.


but I will never forget you.






Sabes que nunca te olvidare.


You know that I will never forget you.






Como olvidar tu sonrisa.


As forgetting your smile.






Como olvidar tu mirada.


As forgetting your look.






Como olvidar que rezaba


As forgetting that it was praying






Para que no te marcharas.


So that you were not leaving.






Como olvidar tus locuras.


As forgetting your madnesses.






Como olvidar que volabas.


As forgetting that you were flying.






Como olvidar que aun te quiero


As forgetting that I even love you






mas que a vivir, mas que a nada.


more than to living, more than to nothing.

forever...

I love the way you make me happy, and the ways you show your care. I love the way you say, ‘I Love You,’ and the way you’re always there.



If the people we love are stolen away from us the only way to have them live on is to never stop lovin’them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever…


Without love I cannot live, You are love so I cannot live without you!!!


*LOVE is something beautiful,a desire, a feeling that one would like to catch. LOVE is the feeling that makes you feel alive. LOVE is something that may never go away!


I wanted to send you all my love but the postman said it was too big !!!!!


Roses of red grow in my heart and they will never wither… ‘Cause they bloom every time I see your smile, hear your voice or just think of you!


If you live to be a hundred , I want to be a hundred minus one day , so I don’t have to live a day without you..


You know what, in the whole world there is no such darling whom I love and I want the whole world to know that I will never forget you!


If I die and go to heaven, I put your name on a golden star. So that all the angels can see how much you mean to me !! I love you


I cannot resist the tears of a woman, that is why I would do anything for you


You are always in my heart, here and everywhere, There is no one in the whole world that makes me feel this way.


In the morning I do not eat because I think of you, at noon I do not eat because I think of you, in the evening I do not eat because I think of you, at night I do not sleep because I am hungry.


Love is as a war, easy to start but hard to end..

i love you fana..

I dream of your touch while you are away,


I dream of your smile all through the day,

I remember the day,



You came into my life,

I dream of the day I will be your wife.



I dream of the day I can fall asleep next to you,

I dream of the day I can say I do.

To be your wife,

To be together for life,

Is a dream I have,

Every night.

Tuesday, 6 April 2010

baca lah...

Dunia ini ibarat pentas lakonan











Manusia itulah pelakon dan pengarah utama nya










Al-Quran dan As-Sunnah itulah skripnya










Malaikat itulah jurugambarnya










Islam itulah jalan ceritanya










Kiamat itulah kesudahan pengambarannya










Padang Masyhar tempat penganugerahannya










Rasullah S.A.W adalah penerima anugerah terbaik










Allah Subhanna Wataala adalah hakimnya










Syurga atau Neraka adalah trofinya









Dear my wonderful wife....

First i want to say its so hard to be away from you ,not talk to you ,not hear or see you I miss your beautiful smile. I want to touch your skin again as I touched your heart. You are the most beautiful,wonderful,sweet,kind,caring,loving,true wife. I could not live without you. As i wait it hurts more , As i wait Im still happy knowing you love me and i have a love that is magical and the most wonderful feeling in the universe. I will never lose faith in your power. I know you can make your dreams come true. Since we have not talked in a long time I had a lot of time to think and I only love you more , then i ever did before...



You are the sweetest most beautiful,sexy,wife and I know we are meant to be one as we always were, our hearts and minds are conected a conection you only find once in a lifetime. I will never let you go ..i will wait as long as it takes but i still worrie every day and it hurts in every way , i want you now I want to touch you ,hold you and kiss you all night long. I want to feel your heart beat . I hate this , I hurt so much ... At the same time im filled with joy because i have the most perfect wife in this universe. For that i am happy ...you are mine and thats how it always shall be as i am yours devoted to you , I bow to your beauty and grace...


I cannot wait to see you again Touch you again and hug you and never let you go again ...I want you more then i ever did ...


I love you my beautiful sweet angel , you are my princess , my life and everything to me , I love you so dont ever let me go....


I miss your eyes and your smile I miss your voice and your beautiful face, When we are together again , we shall finally be happy and no one can ever take that away from us ....I love you my wife I cant wait to see you again i so hope its not that long it hurts so much to be away from you like this ..


I know you will be here soon I know you will be mine soon I know i will hold you so soon my faith in you has never wavered....


My one true love My best friend and My sweet Angel


I love you baby always yours


Your loving hubby